23 January 2016

Not this day

Go ask Alice
is it obvious
downloading and waiting to load
historical hysterical
wary and awkward with none more
wheres the line
the horizon hidden by clouds and darkness
absence
wild resistance but unknown why
a catalyst or a realization of reduction, less options
to walk alone, to walk no where and to sit without purpose
to be used  and to use 
to cry behind an empty smile
to fain excitement for pathetic
disabled, loss of worth, loss of courage

a fiction and hallow words echo in chamber
click, look and amazed

to expose and to be exposed
tired and worn, a crisis
consequence of horror and memory of pain
Bridges burned and smoldering ashes in the field
tight and constricting with no more facades
resignation and resolve

I am the cause and I am the reason and I don't know why
Go ask the rabbit running down the hole again

exposed my fear and my desire 
response of uncertainty and unsure, ambiguous signs
what is the purpose what is the reason what was the cause
life and gods
imagine and perspective traps

thought I could share but not today
thought I could live but not today
thought I could sing but not today
thought I could feel but not today

a path to no where with no one and of no grace
alone, empty cup of coffee and hurtful chest
pills for what
to be involved but the scaffold is falling
logic flow and portion low

I have done what I could and built more with hope
the hope is false and then taken
why wait 

a decision considered, a decision made, a decision a guess really

no more distraction, no more expectation, no more interruption
no more need, no more obstacle, no more worry, no more care
no more

walk away and feel free 
learn and be peace
cry no more and wait no more for you have been released …
be comforted in that yours have found a way gone
an end, a restart for you
a sleep and rest for your work, 

feed your head

I will take your pain with me

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