Awakening
Tony E Hansen
Reflection based upon John 14: 1-14, Acts 7:55-60
May the words my mouth and the meditations of all of our hearts be acceptable in your sight …
We start off May with baskets of goodies and chilly mornings that delay parts of the garden. That along with a wedding between couple friends. A little respite from life’s dealings.
I personally have been dealing with bits of stress. Not like Saint Stephen’s experience - but stress and yes I still pray.
When you have stuff just working and then the premises underneath change, this causes a fair amount rework and feels like a house of cards.
The result is confusion and tendency towards apathy - throwing up hands. There is a feeling of “not important” because my work depends upon those ahead of me. There are important details in play that are being decided and handed out without collaboration or consultation.
Not that everything should be a meeting. I rather enjoy peace of just working and figuring out things. Yet, when you are constantly churning to correct for changes, (latest card to collapse…) it's time to pause until there is a proper way.
The situation impacts more than just progress on potential outcomes. It creeps into the rest of life.
Plenty of questions. Why do I feel like the-last-to-know or even an after-thought rather than something closer to the decision? Am I worthy? Am in the right place? What am I doing? Why do I feel so alone?
Maybe you’ve been in this position… maybe the current world feels chaotic like that?
We partially think what that path is and what kind of dreams people have shared. So we work to build the components of that path and dream. I want to hold onto that dream - walk a good path (not just for me but for those around me and especially my kids.)
Thankfully, we read the Gospel of John - some respite from all of life’s dealings.
This Gospel has some beautiful mysticism and the teachings of the final discourse showcase that. There are 7 of the “I-am” statements, and this one “I am the way the truth and the life…” invites us to something profound and uniquely intimate.
Jesus, in saying “I-am” invokes Exodus of YHWH to Moses question of who are you, that response something like “I am who I am” - simply “I am.”
For most of my life, especially as a youth, I would look up in the sky somewhere abstract and talk to God as someone off and aloof even. That God was somewhere but I not knowing exactly where - that Heaven was some place above us.
Now that we see images from the reverse thanks to flights like Artemis and Apollo, where is Heaven exactly? Where is God?
The universe shows us spectacular display of constellations, clouds, galaxies, comets as many cosmic array of wonder.
Then, I am just this speck on a planet in a wide universe in a wide expanse of time. Why am I here - at this moment - in this place?
That is a massive consideration and also quite humbling. For some, it is draws to despair and hopeless because the enormity of it all and my tiny part starts to feel less than consequential.
That is one of the reasons Jesus says “I am…” bread, the light, the door (gate), the good shepherd, the resurrection, the way, and the vine. “I am” the food, the opening and protection, the guide and protector, the new life and new beginning, the path and the journey and the connection to all.
The way and the path is important here because the destination is not the point, but rather what we do and who we are - rather who I am.
A foundation of what Jesus says is in these proclamations as paths for us. “I am the way” then is invitation to a journey and purpose.
Why and why do I care about that?
For all that expanse around us, there is something fundamental here. For all of the places we look for God and all of the ways we may communicate with the Divine, Jesus reminds us that Divine, the Spirit, is much much closer.
Jesus (and John the Baptist) call out “the kingdom is near,” that God is near. The Spirit is near. What does that mean?
Jesus reminds us - YHWH as “I am.” Jesus invites us to discover the living Spirit living right inside - each and everyone of us. (John 14:11).
What is the first thing Jesus does when appearing to the disciples, "Peace be with you."
Other religions of the world share some notion of this. Understanding this is waking up: An awakening.
That changes the way we think about things; the way we interact with others and the world large. Because, when you consider the Spirit much closer to you and within… Suddenly, God is no longer abstract and aloof but tangible, right here and within. I have access.
The words “I am” become an amazing consideration and not just identity - and maybe a bit scary. What am I supposed to do with Spirit inside?
When you really consider this, everything you do and think suddenly has identity and purpose beyond a singular ‘me’. I am part of (and important to) a wider existence. I don’t think in terms of selfish or even resenting. No matter what happens to me or around me, I can have peace. I can be peace.
That does not exclude people because of their proximity of birth and life circumstances are no where near John's Gospel. The Divine invites us to connect with strangers because they are part of God's love just the same.
The world and the universe are not just large constructs but immaculate beings and marvelous progress growing together. “I am” invites us to see and listen to the Spirit living within - feeding, protecting, enlightening, calling to us, giving direction and life, and yes connecting us to everyone and the whole cosmos.
(Similar to how Paul describes the community as a body with many parts. 1 Corinthians 12)
When I think about it like this, John’s Gospel opens up completely. Wars and violence are totally unnecessary because one does not fight with another child of the Divine. One does not hurt parts of the body.
I am not saying we are each walking Divine, but we are parts and connected to that Divine.
We may not agree on everything or see things the same way. We may not have the same skillsets.
I may not be able to do all the things that God can. I can however live God’s peace and love in my being. I can talk to God anytime I want. Then, Church is there to help us understand how to connect well with the Spirit.
When we witness the Spirit near us and within, we understand the Gospel as a way of being - part of a wonderful journey with purpose. We don’t have to worry because we have identity, we have connection and thus, purpose - a God-given purpose.
World stress goes away.
We can breathe.
I breathe.
I have peace.
I am peace.
Peace.
Thanks Be to God.
Amen
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